My emotions and thoughts on display for all to see
completely open and vulnerable, what a scary place to be
In a world filled with no restraint or remorse
A life that constantly pushes to knock you down
While you fight to stay the course
A world that chases after likes, follows, and public opinion
A place where the same people who lift you up will also tear you down
We portray the lives we want people to see and connect without real intimacy or authenticity
I’m tired of the numbing and the life that’s not real
I want true relationships filled with emotions I can really feel
No more surface level “I’m okay or just fine”
No picture perfect smiles hiding the pain
No more days alone living life virtually
Living isolated cost everything with nothing to gain
I wait for others to connect wondering what’s the problem
Am I to blame?
I shut others out, put up walls, and closed doors then wonder why
no one opens theres when I come knocking
The damage is done, is there no turning back?
Do I move forward and let go of what was lost?
I try to reconnect but life has a way of knocking you off course
Everytime you try to get on track I still push forward believing it will change
I will be seen I will be heard
I will have the courage to heal and let myself feel the feelings I feel
I’ll make amends with the pain I’ve caused
and come to terms with the pain I endured
I’m more than the rejection I’ve lived through
and despite how things look and feel
I have people in my life whose love is true
I have to remember while life is filled with people who leave
It’s the ones who stay
That are worth having hope for another day