High expectations
Unattainable goals
Am I setting myself up
To forever be alone
Closed off
To scared to test if I’m fully healed
All the words left unsaid
Haunting the thoughts in my head
The one I chased who never chased me
The doors left open while I stayed hoping
Looking for every box to be filled and
unsure if I could do the same
Wanted to be found but not willing to search
Wanting to be seen but still hiding
Damaged goods is how I feel
In a world of fake not sure how to be real
I have dreams on how I want this to go
Trying to get out of my own way and stop saying no
My dreams and reality rarely intersect
I reflect on days gone by
A lifetime gone in a blink of an eye
I value life and don’t want it to go to waste
A life with unreturned love, not even a taste
So many mistakes made, what a shame
Through it all I’ve grown and become stronger
Ready to move on from my thoughts and reliving the past
Looking for joy that will last
Things always change but stay the same
I’m ready to move dance to my own beat
Ready to try, scared to cry